I'm a 17 y/o student that spends around 6hours a day on Valorant, but the past 6 months everything is just going downhill. Valorant matches are affecting my mood and mental, I'll feel so useless and hatred towards myself when I'm not performing like intended. I'm so lost in everything, even when Im popping off in a game the happiness only last roughly that 1 match. I dont know am i mentally ill but i know im not healthy, I'm always a pessimistic person and cant keep on the positivity even when im trying to. I just lie to myself that im in a slump but everything is getting worse and worse, everyday i wake up to turn on Valorant just to hate myself more. I thought my performance is just unlucky but everyday it gets worse and worse, i even started to deathmatch around 15games /day or even more. Idk what to do guys, im so lost. I need some opinion guys.