This question has probably been asked a thousand times before, if it has please forgive me and my ignorance.

I keep getting told that bottom fragging means I'm horrible and my K/D ratio also means I'm terrible and everyone bases everything on it.

I'm in iron 3 almost bronze 1, some games I get 10 to 20 kills other games I'm in the single digits. Is it really that important though? Even the people I play with are like it doesn't matter and then go and brag about hitting 30 kills and such. I will have some clutch moments and then I will have shitty moments like wth.

Best moment was on haven and the enemy team planted C next to garage and just slightly to the left of C long so it could be defended at an angle and it was me (kay/o) vs a viper who was C long, placed myself to face C long with a rare moment of good crosshair placement and reflexes (I react slow but trying to work on it since val is the very first game I play comp in, great choice isn't it?) and I got the spike to half, saw the viper line up with my crosshair, got off and head tapped her with the guardian. Again, rare AF moment (we still lost) (matches after that I could not even hit double digits in kills and got carried hard AF, still had fun though)

But I'm not the best player obviously, I cherish moments like that because they are rare for me, I'm always bottom fragging but I try to be support for my team but it feels like I will never be good enough