I'm a girl and I really like this game. But somehow I can't bring myself to play it because I'm so scared of judgement. Everytime I play standard, I start shaking and will start panicking which will lead to me eventually exiting the match....

The game starts, I hear a tired quite female voice asking for a peaceful game since she‘s been harassed much lately. She was probably 13-16. It‘s silent for a few seconds and suddenly two guys tell her to shut the fuck up and kill herself....