I was Silver 3, and my lobbies were gold only. I was top fragging them with 190 ADR and 1.5KD as a controller (Viper).

I was playing a match and someone said "I am platinum", I was so happy that I was versing someone who is plat as silver 3 player. I died a few times and thought "I am playing bad because these are plat players". I bottom fragged and thought it's because I am in a plat lobby so nothing to worry about. It turned out that no one in the lobby was Plat. I played bad just because I thought they were plat. I went from top fragging gold players to bottom fragging simply because I thought they were plat. Then I just kept thinking "why did I get in my own head. Why did I play bad against gold players". The next game was horrible too. I went from averaging 20% HS% to 5% in these two games.

At this moment I lost the motivation to play after being extrememly motivated when I was top fragging gold players. I took one week break from competitive. My aim is still great in DM and I even did some aim labs in my break but I played 5 competitive matches today. Lost all 5. Had 140 ADR with 0.9 KD. This was agains silver/bronze players only.

Any advice or tips to become your old self. I am capable, I have done it. I don't know what is going on.