That's it that's the post. Idk why but the feeling of having my friends list completely lit up green brings me a feeling that I haven't felt for a long time.

I'm still friends with them, I never had a falling out. They just stopped playing League, but jumped from game to game. Last year they played Fall guys, Among Us, and I didn't completely joined the ship.

The last month until now were the greatest time, ever since I understood the game completely. Since they all started playing Valorant which is coincidentally a Riot game. So I thought hey why not?

The feeling was amazing! It felt lonely for a while, and I never realized how lonely I felt playing a game. I also never realized how I tried to replace that feeling with joining lol meme subs just for interactions.

Even games that can be offline like Minecraft didn't feel like this. It was just a blast playing Valorant for almost a month now! I didn't realize how much my friends are willing to play with me after a day in college or their shift on their jobs.

I have friends who told me they "forgot" how fast I could pick up mechanics in video games. Saying shit with terms I don't know like Bean Hopping? Either way it felt really uplifting as if I was some kind of prodigy lmao.

And it felt like my news feed for my social media apps are lighting up! I'm involved with a community that's very content driven and a never ending meme pump. I get tagged with shit.

I even made new friends since one of my friends streams and they found out I also play now! I got people asking me who I am and if when do I feel like playing competititve. And if ever can they help me, I never got that in League. It's a constant feeling of trying to solo carry games in a too polarizing way that I normalized.

It felts like a chore playing Lol again after playing Valorant with friends. I don't know what the purpose of making this post anymore after the 1st sentence other than sharing how you guys feel and how I pray they don't leave me again.

To end this I'd like to say one final sentence. I FUCKING HATE BREEZE And I don't even know the game completely yet.