Hi, so I'm fairly new to Valorant and I'm gonna be honest I KNOW I'm not that great. I would say my skills are not the worst but I bottom frag 90% of the time. My game sense is also not the best, and this is something I really want to improve in. The only mode I'm comfortable playing is spike rush, I barely solo queue in unrated and only play with friends, and I've never played competitive.

One time I was playing an unrated game (keep in mind, I never use mic in game because I'm a girl and I've seen girls online get harassed which has pretty much traumatised me and made me too scared to experience it myself) and I've had this guy in voice chat literally bully and shout at me because I wasn't playing the best. Hell, even the other team was saying that I sucked. This kind of affected me heavily because now I don't feel comfortable playing in unrated because I don't want to let my teammates down, and I'm scared I'll just get ridiculed again and be screamed at. Every time I think about playing unrated, I remember this experience and it kind of ruins the mood for me and gives me anxiety and I go back to playing spike rush. I know this is probably not even a big deal, but I really took these comments mentally and personally.

I still really enjoy playing Valorant and it still interests me. I want to get better. I watch youtube tutorials and twitch streamers to get insight on how to get better. But I know the only way to get better is by playing the game which I can't really comfortably do. I was wondering if anyone had tips for someone like me who struggles with anxiety? Or if there's a discord server for girls in Australia so I can play with an all-female stack instead of dealing with the anxiety of queuing with a toxic dude.

TLDR; I'm a gamer girl who wants to get better and improve in Valorant and one day be able to solo queue with confidence, but I just can't handle the toxicity of the game so I don't know how to get around this.