You finish your last game of the day. 12-14. Damn. If I had won that game, I would have been 90 lp, only one more game and I would have made it to the next rank, you tell yourself. How many games did I play today? Ten games. Five wins and after that last game, five losses. I wonder how much LP I have. Oh. 65. Literally the same as yesterday. Ten games and I'm back to where I was. I did everything right. I played 5 deathmatches to warm up, I watch Valorant streams during queue times, and I made sure to eat a good meal and got about 6 hours of sleep last night. The sun has already become the moon. I'm tired. Five wins. Five losses.

It all feels so useless.

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I'm not improving.

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This is a waste of time.

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Is that so? Has today been useless? NO! OF COURSE NOT! YOU PLAYED TEN GAMES TODAY. FIVE OF THE MATCHES YOU WON, YOU CLUTCHED THREE TIMES. YOU GOT SOME NICE JETT ULTS TODAY. YOU HAD A REALLY NICE FLICK ON THAT LAST GAME. YOU WERE AT A 6 ROUND DEFICIT AND YOUR TEAM WANTED TO SURRENDER. YOU DIDN'T. THAT GAME WAS YOUR FIFTH WIN OF THE DAY. YOU ARE GETTING BETTER. EVEN IF THE LP DOESN'T REFLECT IT, THE PROGRESS YOU MADE TODAY IS SUBSTANTIAL. IF YOU PLAY AGAINST THE VERSION OF YOURSELF YESTERDAY TEN GAMES AGO YOU WOULD WIN! So it's not useless. It's not a waste of time. You are improving. You are getting better. Even if it feels like it doesn't, just remember;

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You're on the right track.

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(Re-posted due to vague title.)