I was excited for the rank reset before the last act ended. My two worst maps were being removed from the rotation & I was playing at my best since I came back to the game. My goal was to get to Diamond this act as I had grinded to Plat with an great solo-que WR in the previous episode. I was happy about this because I dropped to Silver 1 at the beginning of last act due to me not playing to my strengths as a controller/Cypher player & queuing for games at bad times for me, so I was able to grind two ranks last act mostly through solo-que.

The numbers don’t lie; I’m objectively playing terribly this act. My WR is down 20%. My best Map WR from last act was Pearl with 80% with > 20 games played. Currently, I’m sitting at barely 40%. My Ascent WR is 12% with ~10 games played.

I can’t win this act & it’s frustrating. Everything I did last act is failing this time around. I’m not toxic & try to be positive to all my teammates. I make playcalls without being rude. I practice & watch play style videos more advanced than your typical Jollz video as I love the strategic elements of this game. I try to play off my teammates which is especially necessary as a smoke.

Now I don’t even want to talk or communicate with my team which was one of my favorite parts about this game. For example, I’ve not been playing my main, Viper, as I wanted to instead play more Harbor & Cypher this act. I played Harbor on Split as I had practiced with him on the map. I sucked. One of my teammates asked me what my rank is. I told them I was plat before the rank reset, but I’ve been underperforming since it occurred. He told me that was cap and I told him I could show him my gun buddy, so he retorted that I was defiantly boosted. This hurt as I had gotten to plat nearly all through solo-que with positive energy & playcalling, but I’ve been struggling this act & it’s not like I’m unaware that I’ve been playing poorly Now I don’t even want to play Harbor or comm in a game despite way more toxic teammates in the past. That comment just really stung.

Eventually, I took a break & came back lost all three of my games even ff’, which I never do, during an 0-7 run with a iron (who was smurfing but besides the point) on the other team. Still, I’m in the top 20% of wins this act with a bottom 25% WR.

Sorry for the vent. I’m just frustrated as I want to improve regardless of rank & I’m unsure of what I can do as I’m playing worse against worse opponents than I was before the rank reset.