I'm a girl and I really like this game. But somehow I can't bring myself to play it because I'm so scared of judgement. Everytime I play standard, I start shaking and will start panicking which will lead to me eventually exiting the match. And when I do have the courage to play it, I whiff so hard and will get trash talked by my teammates.

I only play deathmatch but I always get 1st place, so my aim is not that bad. I really want to improve in using my agent's skills, but I won't be able to do that if I can't play in standard. Any tips?