I mvped won 13-8 and went 26/16/8 and gained 21 rr but a few games ago I lost 13-10 going 12/14/7 and lost 22 rr. It feel like I should have gotten more for my wins and less for my losses, why is this?

I want to start this post by saying thank you to anyone that reads this all the way through - it was hard to post, but it was time to admit it to myself. I am toxic, and I need to work on it. During my first game of the day, I had t...