About 3 months ago my boyfriend asked me to try Valorant so we could have a game we play together. He's Gold 3 and I'm Silver 1. In the beginning he was pretty nice and was trying to teach me but he's very competitive and gets really angry with me because he thinks I'm not trying my best. Sometimes he even accuses me of trying to lose on purpose. He tells me I'm stupid, incompetent, or that I'm really a bronze player, maybe he's right. I do my best to practice, watch videos, deathmatch, etc. I'm happy with how I play, I'm not trying to be radiant or anything, but I don't seem to get any better, and this makes him upset.

The problem is that all of a sudden, he told me I am too bad at the game, I'm never going to get better, and I'm holding back his rank, so he can't play comp with me anymore, only unrated.

I wouldn't mind this so much except it feels like in unrated we get matched against really really good players. He checks everyone's ranks every game for some reason, but a lot of the time it's immortals, plats, etc. Almost never silvers. So every game I just get killed instantly over and over, then he gets really mad and insults me. But it just feels so unfair. I play a lot better in ranked because everyone is silver/gold, and I have a lot more fun.

I know he wants his rank to go up, and I know I'm holding him back because I'm not good. But he asked me to play this game to spend time with me, and now he doesn't even want to anymore.

How do I improve at the game enough so I can play comp with him? I really just want to have fun with my boyfriend but he needs me to be better.